Bismillah...

Allahumma inni a'udhubika minal hammi wal hazan, wal 'ajzi wal kasal,
wal bukhli wal jubn, wa dhala'id-dayni wa ghalabatir rijaal.

O Allah! I seek refuge in You from grief and sadness, from weakness
and from laziness, from miserliness and from cowardice, from being
overcome by debt and from being overpowered by men (other people).
[Sahih al-Bukhari, 7:158].

Assalamualaikum..

Maaan.. I lost count of reciting the dua above! Tomorrow is the last
day of sharia banking course, and I found myself soooooo lazy to
come.. Erk! I dont know why, I dont know why. I really want to go to
the school, because the head teacher of the social and Indonesian
languge class, kak Dian, wanted to talk to me. Yea, Kak Deni text me
and informed me bout that.

"Mba Lalu besok jam 9 dimohon datang ke Hanaeka dan langsung temui kak Dian"

Intermezzo: See, he calls me with my last name! Bwahaha.. It's ok. I
use to. Evryone does that. My family name is unique, isnt it? :p

Back to the topic..

With a weight upon my heart, I replied the text and told that I cant
come. Phew, I dont know what to say. She must be wanted to have kinda
serious matter with me. To be honest, this is my fault coz I forgot to
inform them that the course takes 3 days; July 14, July 15, and July
21.

You know, I my spirit's kinda flagging. Im feel sooo sorry about that.
But I know Allah puts me in this kind of circumstance because He wants
to remind me no to be forgetful and I have to be firmed. Aahh..
There's alaways be hikmah over the happening...

Alhamdulillah, Im moving toward to the changing aka leaving one of my
bad attitudes: felt and acted exaggerated when something bad or wrong
comes up. Alhamdulillah, and I hope this wont fade away. C'mon, Ive
read many Islamic books, Ive read many sisters' blog, Im digging
Islam, so I have to try to be better day in day out. I dont want I do
all those things just for in vain.

I know I have done wrong and I admit I do feel so bad, coz Im the big
contributor in it. But I also really thank Allah for the reminding.
Really, there are so so so many bad things in me that I have to
change.. For my destination is I want to be a true Muslimah...

Salaam..

Alhamdulillah, Im officially a teacher now in the private school which
(this school) known as a multiple intelligences school. Actually, I
was applied for admin. possition. But something surprising happened in
the last test of the position. It should be an interview but for me it
was kinda a brain storming!

They like the bulletin school that I made. They appreciate the
contents (poem and short story) of the bulletin that were made by me.
From there, the conversation led them to know what's in me.

"You are talented in writing! Why you applied for an admin? You will
do better and your talent will develop if you work as a teacher.
Indonesian language teacher"

I was speechless. Didnt know what to say.

"But my background is economy and I never take teaching class nor have
teaching experience before" I replied finally.

"Do you know, that most of the teachers here dont have teaching either
educational teaching background? We dont make that as the requirement.
All that we need is a high quality teacher who has ability, talent,
and passion in transfering the the ATP that he/she has to the
students"

Speechless. His words touched me.

"How if offering you an Indon. lang. teacher position? Im serious with
the offer"

Immediately, soo many happenings which happened to me lately,
scattering inside my head. Until finally I said 'yes'.

Why?

Because I think this is HIS answer for all my prayers related with the
career. MashaAllah, I lately realized that He made evrythng so easy.
HE knows what I really want. HE knows in what kind of work and
situation I can developing both of my career and my personal
abilities. HE is the one and only who really knows what we human being
dont know.

I fall in love with the school at the first time I entered the gate. I
do thankful to HIM coz I meet people who can see what's in me and
understand me.

Going to start teaching on Monday. And as the new teacher, I teach
'the special students with the special treatment' (autis and
hyperactive children). The school accepts that kind of children too.

The other thing I love from this school is, they believe that every
kid is bright tho they bright in different scopes. They acknowledge
that there are seven kinds of intelegences:
kecerdasan linguistik
kecerdasan logis-matematis
kecerdasan spasial
kecerdasan musikal
kecerdasan kinestetik
kecerdasan interpersonal
kecerdasan intrapersonal.

MashaAllah...

There is no one who was born to be a stupid person.